O.k. I'm writing my first novel. It's been a long time coming for me. I already have two potential publishers picked out. After researching this whole "writing" business I've discovered that a first novel can be anywhere between 80,000 and 100,000 words. As of late, I haven't been very inspired with my writing. But my bestie whom I love dearly is keeping tabs on me. I'm so glad she's in my corner.
So all of a sudden I've become inspired to put my neck on the line. Just in case I don't already put enough pressure on myself I'm going to let you (my small blog audience) in on some of the details. I read that putting it out there in the universe makes you feel obligated to somebody other than yourself.
Here are the details:
The genre: Erotica (I know I know) I mean just putting that down for anyone in cyberspace to read makes me feel some kind of way. If you don't know what is meant by "erotica" then please look it up. I'm conflicted by that "box" for many reasons. But first and foremost it's because I'm not sure what to do about it. I keep reading what I have so far. There's no way around it. I don't know what else it could be called.
Secondly: It's a work of fiction. I think about my family reading it. Let's just say folks, I have a really good imagination. This will definitely be a work of fiction. But dang it, I know my parents and people who know me in real life will assume that it's all true. Most fiction writers use aspects of their real life in writing and this is how it works for me. I take stuff that has happened for real and add elements that didn't happen. It can be as simple as a smell or something that brushed across my skin and I'll file it away in my brain for later use. It still doesn't take away my feeling that people I know will try to make the characters into identifiable people.
Last but not least, by posting my progress throughout the blog, I hope to hold myself accountable to my goal of having my first draft finished by December 31st 2011. If I don't make it, that's o.k. too. But here it is, I'm putting my head on the block for anyone that cares to hold me to it. Like I said a first novel can be anywhere between 80,000 to 100,000 words. (Gulp) But I actually wrote a schedule out for myself and I was doing really good with it for a while. I figured if I wrote a 100,000 words and broke it down daily, all I have to do is write 424 words per day and my first draft would be finished by December 31st 2011. But here's the thing, I stalled out weeks ago.
I know everything. I know the beginning, the middle, and how it's going to end. However, I haven't actually written that many words. As a matter of fact, I'll go ahead and tell you down to the word how many words I have written RIGHT NOW. I have exactly 11,647 words written. Why is it so hard you may ask when you already know the beginning, the middle AND how the story will end BiancaFace? Well it's because it just is.
I read once that writing is like sitting down and opening up a vein or cutting your brain open and putting it on paper. (yeah that's kinda graphic) Anyway, I'll keep you posted. If for no other reason, than to hold myself accountable. Oh and by the way, what I've written so far, is funny, erotic, AND sweet TO ME. I just hope when it's all said and done it conjures up all those emotions and more for my audience.